So I had a yelling match with my dad and woke up my poor tired mom over my lost social security card. I was so positive that I left it in that James Bond case where all our important papers are held (It's just a Samsonite case, but my dad calls it the James Bond case since I guess it was used in the movies?) Anyways... after all that arguing and yelling, I at least went through my stuff to make sure that it's not lost.

And it wasn't. It was in my darn pencil case. ._.

I feel so bad and stupid... asdfkjal;sjdfalsjdf *kicks self in the butt*

And yes, Ming, I went waaaaaaay over the red zone. I bought x3 the amount that I told you that I would limit myself to, haha~   I am incorrigible.

I rode the subway for the first time today! Well, the L.A. one, that is. It's pretty decent actually. It's really fast and no hassle since you don't have to look for parking and all that. Although, it's not for the claustrophobics, because wow, the tunnels are really dark and cramped (when the car is moving, not the stations).

And just when I thought he was a figment of my imagination, the man of destiny appeared again. I really should stop calling him that, but it's just too funny. I'm a firm believer in destiny, so let's see how this game plays out, or even plays at all.

So I fell a lot today.... ice on butt is not a good feeling. But I learned how to do one foot spins today! I feel so accomplished, haha. Rose and I are progressing at a fast pace, thanks to a kind ahjussi named Richard. He helps all the skaters out, and it's so nice to see that the skaters are friendly people. I can also do an en dedans pirourette now, but only spinning towards the right. I will master the left soon! All this activity makes Anna tired but happy, because it releases the endorphins Anna really needs. </end third person talk>

Another accomplishment for today: burping. I had an epiphany as I was driving back home, and all of a sudden, I had gained mastery over the muscle that controls burping. It kinda makes me feel gassy though. Maybe I should stop practicing... after all, it really isn't useful, haha.

The denim warehouse sale is back in LA. DAMMIT! Temptation strikes again... My love for antiks and RRs will break me one day... they're just too pretty to resist. *sigh* But I will get my holy grail one day: Amethyst Kurts... it's just terribly wonderful.

Isn't it the way of the world to be filled with ironies as much as there are coincidences? The people you want to hold on to so much are so hard to reach, while the ones you want to go away never fade away that easily. Destiny has an odd way of messing with my head, and I really feel like I'm a character in a movie. The whole Korean drama thing where the two protagonists pass each other by without realizing it. Maybe... maybe next week I'll see him again. That whole week was really odd, though. I feel like our building has a magic elevator. Kat laughs at my self-proclaimed title of "Man of Destiny." You would too if you only experienced it!

Helio's being funny again. The green lights for St. Patrick's day.. har har har. Wise guys.

I wish the days have more hours for me to do all the things I want to do. Life is just too short nowadays.

my lovely lady lu-... no, not really. My feet are bumpy, because it's covered in blisters... yay... It's pretty gross, haha. But I don't want to pop them; it hurts too much...  D:

Watch The Zodiac! That was a pretty good movie, and I'm now glad that I live in LA, not the Bay Area... I guess crime mystery thriller movies are in right now...

I feel so accomplished, now that I know how to hem.  

A topic that never ceases to fascinate me: metaphysics. There just isn't an end to this subject, and what's even more rare is the people who are genuinely interested in it. How sad.

I saw the Skin and Bones exhibit at MOCA, and WOW! That totally made me want to become a fashion designer. Not because of its superficial aspects, but the fact that fashion design is an art. I love Alexander McQueen's Scotland theme; it's gorgeous! Too bad it ended today, and is now heading over to Korea and Japan.

I just discover more passions within me each and every day...

By the end of each night, I feel the fire in my ankles shoot up to my hips.

I love it. I don't know what my life was like last year, but this is year is definitely a good year for my body, in terms of movement, awareness, and just simple appreciation. I just may have to keep on dancing for the rest of my life... I knew I was flexible, but never this flexible. I surprise myself sometimes, haha.

No pain, no gain. It's a fact of life now... Life just seems oddly unchallenging without it, you know?

Hehe, I am feeling majorly accomplished today because I learned how to do backwards crossovers  I feel like I'm aging backwards into a kid again~ I feel all giddy inside

so i took a test mel gave me... ho ho ho~

Your Heart Is Red
You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart.
Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person!

Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy

Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing

Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense

What you bring to relationships: Honesty

Happy fake birthday, Candice! I shall give you goofy pictures of you later, hehe~ You and Johnny are too cute XD

Lately, I have been feeling like people weren't worth meeting, just a waste of time, since they felt shallow, uninspiring, and etc. But I just realized that I haven't been meeting the right type of people to begin with, so of course I was getting nowhere about meeting people of substance. The race that knows Joseph, according to Miss Cornelia, for the rare few who knows this reference. It's just hard to meet people that aren't preoccupied with the fleeting, temporary, superficial aspects of life. I'm just glad that I have more people to talk about what makes life such an extraordinary experience. The metaphysical, the physical, the sacred, and the mundane. I'm feeling inspired again, and now I know it's because I realize that there are still people out there who genuinely care about others, the human race, and existence in general. Because after all, life in itself is amazing. Funny how most of us takes it for granted every single day, and a good amount of people will never realize they do. I'm blessed to have all these wonderful people in my life, and even if I'm not always conscious of it, I'm still thankful for being surrounded their supportive presence.

On a different note, ballet is killing my thighs. Urghhhh.... At least my kicks will be much more painful, hehehe  >:D

The two things that inspired me today.

Today I was reaquainted with my lost ideals. That there is still romance left in the world, and it's happening all around me. Of course, it may not come to me now, but I have renewed hope that it will find me someday. Hopeless romantic? You betcha. It just makes the world seem a bit sweeter and more meaningful.

Today, as I stepped out unknowingly from the elevator, the doors opened to reveal a glance from Fate. It gave me just one glance, but that one glance was just enough. Because there are too many things that are piling up, and I can't consider it as coincidence anymore. Fate is giving me a big flashing sign... I just don't know what it exactly is, but I know it's saying that there is a destiny for me, and I don't have to worry about chance anymore. For those who know me well, one glance means everything. The start and end of everything.

Wheeeee~ I finished my finals (it was CAKE, btw), and I am so happy! But only for the next few days, because stupid SMC starts on Monday again... BUT!!!!!!! I will be taking fun and easy classes, so I am not worried~ I'm actually excited   I'm taking ballet, jazz, fashion, and history (<--prereq, blah!) I love my ballet teacher, she's so awesome~ She's so disciplined, but she has a great sense of humor and such vivacity! She is encouraging all of her student to go to this Thai massage place in downtown LA (she emphasizes a lot that it's CHEAP, $35-40 for an hour), and I will probably go there since she said it'll make you heal and feel wonderfully elastic, haha~ Anyone want to join me? *HINT HINT, to a certain person who is fattening me up with every Hostess product ever made*   I <3 you~~~ These cookies you gave me makes me swoon with euphoria! Blueberry and chocolate is a GENIUS COMBINATION! I don't know how these could have been missing from my life until now... thank you for opening my eyes!

Oh, I feel so blessed sometimes~

GAH! I just starting watching Hanadan 2, and OMG! Soujiro is hotness. HOTNESS! Melissa would understand why. She knows my obsession with nice hair, haha. My goodness! Well, actually, in the manga, Soujiro and Rui looks the best out of the four... But Soujiro in the drama is even better!

can't......... stop...........staring..........at..........hair..........

well, Rui always looks good. Oguri Shun <3

I am so loving this series! XD

It's true. Just look at my entry title. My knowledge of the English grammar? Almost as nonexistent as melissa's. jk jk~ mel <3  I can't spell things either...

I'm looking at my Elite notes that I got from my brother, and WOW. I totally forgot my basic math stuff. I'm sitting here, looking at a triangle with a right angle, and thinking... what the heck is soh cah toa again? I don't even know... *sigh* Geometry used to be my best subject too. I knew that stuff in my sleep. I even got an A++ in that class! (Gotta love extra credit) And now... I am reduced to a pitiful state of idiocy. Probably because unless you major in math, you really don't need to know any of it anymore... If I had to take the SAT again, I would probably get a 200... for getting my name right... oh boy.

Okay, so I've been watching Hotelier for two months now, and I really like this song they use every time Song Yoona and BYJ meet each other in the bar... These people know how to use their songs wisely, I say. But seriously, my fave actor in it is Park Jung Chul. He is an awesome actor, and he just blew me away when he played a korean gangster boss in the drama Shinhwa (very good overall cast, btw). I think he's in the military right now   Hopefully he'll make more stuff soon after he comes back

Annnndddd~~~

Thank you, my dearest Hana! I got your email, and I'll reply as soon as the weekend comes, so I can devote all of my energy to write the longest email you've ever read. Haha, I'm kidding, I don't want your eyeballs to fall out, heehee~ Hang in there, only a couple more months till you come back to us!

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star, like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are, how fragile we are

weird. Of course! That's why people like it so much.

After going to that JABA thing today, I think it would be cool to have a job like Eric Nakamura's. I want to go around and search for random artsy products in Japan. Actually, that would be fantastic. Me <- interested in Japan, and art, and toys = bingo! Well, of course, I wouldn't run a business like Giant Robot (would be great if I could, but money + me does not mix well), but I'd like to be able to roam around freely and meet undiscovered talent in the art business.

Or maybe I could someday write a book that could be made into something big... doesn't everyone have elaborate dreams? Ideally, I would want to be a manga-ka and draw my own series, but I don't know if I have the talent to do that anymore. All I have left is creativity, brimming and constantly churning in the recesses of my mind. And yet sadly, it is only expressed within my dreams, leaving me wondering about my sanity and the reality of this world. But aren't we all just misunderstood, misguided artists? It's just that some people choose to express it, and some people aren't able to find the right medium to express it. I don't know...

My job makes me wonder if there are people out there that really act like the actors in dramas. I would think it's possible, but very rare... It just makes me think that people live their lives through the strength of their mind... As long as you have the mental capacity to endure, anything is possible. But more importantly, the mind's ability to believe, to persuade yourself from being discouraged, amazes me the most. What tenacity the mind has. It really isn't easy to be an optimist. It isn't foolish hope that sustains people. It's the effort, the diligence, the struggle to keep fighting against the drudgery of life that impresses me the most. It's easy to complain, and to envy others' of their happiness. I remember one of my ballet teachers telling us that we shouldn't be fooled by people who make everything look so easy, and that for a moment of happiness, we must endure a lifetime of pain. Oh boy, let me tell you, ballerinas are tough people. They're entirely muscle, and they're lean, mean, fighting machines. I'm just inspired by my ballet teachers; they have such discipline that most people don't have. It's really similiar to martial arts mentality of discipline.

But anyways, I digress... as usual. I'm just trying to keep my mind off the fact that my future will be decided in a week. Gah.